Merging

Jeff and I have been together for a month now and we have been inseparable since the day we have met. I never thought that I could spend so much of my time with another human being without feeling claustrophobic. In the past, I was really protective of my personal space. I couldn't stand it when a guy would leave anything in my apartment that would be a reminder of him. It felt too much like they were moving into my personal space. Not so with Jeff. I have even made room for his personal belongings at my place.

I can remember a time when I was seeing someone else who used to leave his stuff in my apartment and I would freak out. I was too selfish to give up anything of mine for a guy. I guess I never really cared for or was in love with anyone else in the past. It's different for me now. I can happily walk around my apartment and love to see Jeff's things hanging around.

Realistically, I know that this high that we are on will eventually calm down, but my feelings for him continue to grow and deepen. If there is such a thing as a soul mate, then I have found mine. I actually feel optimistic about the future, and I have to say that sharing my life with someone this special makes each day terrific. I'll take the good and the bad with him which I was not willing to do with anyone else. When things got heated in the least bit with other men, I would run away as fast as I could. I'm in this relationship for the long haul - something that I could not say about any of the others.